Does your family know how your feeling? If they haven’t could you try to let them know? If that isn’t an option what about a school counselor? You could always go to a hospital and ask to speak with someone and let them know you’re wanting some help (I’m guessing you do since you posted here) you don’t need to tell them you’re wanting to kill yourself, but that is completely up to you, just tell them you need help, maybe finding a counselor or therapist to talk to (if you don’t have one) they have local resources they can help connect you with.
You could always let your doctor know about how your feeling he/she can also refer you to someone in your area.
What do you like to do for fun? Me I like listening to music, writing, playing small games online or calling someone I haven’t talked to in a while.
Do you have any hobbies? My hobby is a little weird, I collect Kinder Egg Surprises, the little toys, it always puts a smile on my face when I see what I get.
Do you play sports?
Are you a part of any groups?
I understand how hard it is, I struggled with suicide for a few years sometimes it comes up here and there but I fight it. I feel you have a little determination in you, not just writing to Youth Space but speaking about it, almost like you want to get help.
Hey, Youth Space is here for you okay, they have helped me and they’ve got to know me. Youth Space is very friendly and gentle, they listen and when they say, “we’re ‘hear’ for you…” they really want to “hear” from us so they can help others.
vaybby91, try your best no one could ask for anything else from you on Youth Space.