September 2, 2012 at 5:18 pm #16350vaybby91Member
So Ive been feeling really crappy lately and I don’t feel like living anymore. I feel so alone in my situation. Ive been thinking about killing myself but my family is holding me back. I dont look forward to live anymore. I dont look forward to seeing any friends or anyone anymore. I dont think of myself as a good person anymore. Im not happy anymore. This morning i woke up thinking of ways to go out of this world. I feel like that is i die some time soon that i wont be missed.
September 4, 2012 at 9:50 pm #18378morge18Member
Does your family know how your feeling? If they haven’t could you try to let them know? If that isn’t an option what about a school counselor? You could always go to a hospital and ask to speak with someone and let them know you’re wanting some help (I’m guessing you do since you posted here) you don’t need to tell them you’re wanting to kill yourself, but that is completely up to you, just tell them you need help, maybe finding a counselor or therapist to talk to (if you don’t have one) they have local resources they can help connect you with.
You could always let your doctor know about how your feeling he/she can also refer you to someone in your area.
What do you like to do for fun? Me I like listening to music, writing, playing small games online or calling someone I haven’t talked to in a while.
Do you have any hobbies? My hobby is a little weird, I collect Kinder Egg Surprises, the little toys, it always puts a smile on my face when I see what I get.
Do you play sports?
Are you a part of any groups?
I understand how hard it is, I struggled with suicide for a few years sometimes it comes up here and there but I fight it. I feel you have a little determination in you, not just writing to Youth Space but speaking about it, almost like you want to get help.
Hey, Youth Space is here for you okay, they have helped me and they’ve got to know me. Youth Space is very friendly and gentle, they listen and when they say, “we’re ‘hear’ for you…” they really want to “hear” from us so they can help others.
vaybby91, try your best no one could ask for anything else from you on Youth Space.
September 5, 2012 at 6:36 pm #18385YouthspaceModerator
Thanks for sharing with us how youve been feeling… I can hear that its been REALLY hard for you lately :'( Im sorry youve been feeling so awful, and was wondering if anything happened to cause the feelings, or if its more just how youve been feeling?
I can hear you struggling with thoughts of suicide and I imagine those thoughts are creating even more isolation for you…? I get the sense youre feeling like no one in the world cares about you… thats must be a really heavy feeling in your heart
I know we dont know you, but I hope you believe we care about you and how youre doing! Im worried about you vaybby91, you seem lost and alone, and desperate for things to change… Im hearing that thinking about suicide is one way youve found to cope with your feelings, but Im wondering if you discovered any other ways (that are life-preserving) to deal with everything youre feeling? How’ve you been getting through your days…
Im happy morge18 gave us a vote of support… they are right, we are “hear” for you (and all our chatters and posters)! Not sure if you checked out our live chat, but we’d love to connect that way too… we’re “hear” to help you any night of the week (from 6-11pm on the west coast).
Stay strong vayabby91, stay alive…
the Support Team
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