I am not ready…

I am not ready…

I am just not ready…

I can’t be ready…

I need…
to talk about this…

I just can’t, it hurts every second of every thought that goes into…

this… constant…

feelings.

I am ready to talk about 1 thing…

I hate…

Food.

It has caused me great pain. It has made me sick. It has made me refuse it. It has made me loose weight. It has controlled my brain.

Why?

I have three diagnoses and they are all treatable I don’t believe doing what I should will help, I have tried.

Autoimmune Disease(Celiac)
Lactose Intolerance
IBS

I simply

HATE
FOOD…

I do not trust food, I am hesitant in eating for my body to not like it. I am sick of feeling sick from food.

I must… continue to be careful, resulting in fear of my body disagreeing and I’m left with… flare-ups, feeling sick, tired, etc., food hurts…

it…
just…
hurts…