It’s actually kind of comforting reading your reply, I haven’t told anyone about how I feel and it just kind of seems like you understand.
That’s exactly how I feel, even if there’s no judgement at all I feel like they hate me as much as I do.
A lot of the time I find myself questioning what I’d be doing and who I really am if I didn’t feel this way, and you’re right, it’s very confusing and stressful. I sometimes can’t tell the difference between my mind and reality, though not all the time. I’ve never thought of actually ending my life, or self harm.
I really am working hard on feeling good about myself. It’s good to know someone’s there to listen