hey well the thing is the hospital stay was great compared to other stays i had but i am back to my old self suicidal self harming binge and purging and feel like i screwed up everything for my self by not taking out of the stay what i should have.

yes i am extremly overwhelled by everything and do not know what to do with myself ;'(

grenouille :'( sadness, hopeless, useless, worthless helpless, stupid dumb LOSER :'(