I get the sense that the hospital stay was a fairly positive experience, but since then things have spiraled out of control and you are just barely holding on right now. I imagine you lost in a sand storm…unsure which way to turn, being beaten down by wind and sand from every direction.
I hear you getting really down on yourself for the self-injurious behaviours that you have fallen back on since your hospital stay…I’m wondering what it is you feel you should have gotten out of your stay?
Suicide is occurring to you as a way out of this pain…have you planned your death? We are here for you if you want to talk about these thoughts.
Stay safe grenouille19, we’re on your side.
the Support Team