Well sorry that i have not sent anything in a while i have been in a deep depression and havent gotten the strenght to go on the computer …. Welll here it is i am just out of control i am useless wortrhless hopeless helpless little fucker i hate myself and that is that..

I wish i understood what goes on in my head a little better i wish i did not hear voices and that i was able to control the self harm better and all i wish all that was happening now but it is not