Heyy Bri,

Thanks for trusting us with your story… it really sounds like life is beating you down and its getting harder and harder to stay up… I get the sense that it feels like you can NEVER really catch your breath.

Im glad youre connected to therapy, and that it feels like things are getting somewhere some of the time, but I imagine the set-backs are reeeally frustrating and at times you feel like just giving up. Is there anyone else supporting you?

You’ve been hanging on to one h*ll of a ride… what keeps you going? Especially when everything hurts so much? Oh Bri, I imagine sometimes it feels like nothings ever gonna change… I’m wondering if it ever gets so bad that you think about suicide?

We’re ‘hear’ for you Bri… not sure if youve tried our chat/text, but I invite you to check it out… any night 6-11pm (on the westcoast).

Stay strong… and stay connected,
the Support Team

Hi Bri,

That sounds absolutely exhausting… like a rhythm-less roller coaster ride that leaves you plummeting downhill whenever you least expect it. I can hear how much work it is to get to a place where you feel more in-control, and so when those rapid downhills happen… I imagine it gets so discouraging. :’(

I’m so glad to hear that you’re getting support from your family and friends in trying to ride those chaotic ups and downs… it takes a lot of strength to keep reaching out and trying to express what’s going on for you, especially when it can be confusing even for yourself. It sounds like these people hold a very special place in your heart… that they give you courage when things get tough.

Even with that support, I’m sensing how desperately you want a break from all the fear and anxiety, and that that desire can lead you to think about dying. Thanks for being honest with us about your thoughts of suicide… it sounds to me like suicide doesn’t really seem like an option for you, but the thought does spend time in your mind when you’re feeling so weighed down by everything else… as a way to end the pain you’re carrying around. As you hold on to life, have you found anything that helps lessen the enormous weight on your shoulders… even just for a bit?

We’re ‘hear’ for you whenever you need support on that roller coaster ride, both on the forum and on chat if you’d like.

Take care,
The Support Team.

Heyy Bri,

I can really hear how powerless you feel with the panic attacks… like, even though you’re doing what you can to manage them, they’re still coming and invading your life sometimes and it sounds like when those times come, it feels almost unbearable… even though your friends and parents help (and therapy too?), it doesn’t take away the fact that they still come, and when they do – SOMEHOW you need to get through to the other side. You mentioned all the pain that doesn’t go away when the panic attack ends… can you tell me more about that?

Waiting for an attack to end sounds so scary, frustrating and exhausting… I can hear how tired you are of having to deal with this, Bri. I’m glad you have some coping strategies (breathing exercises, staying positive, etc.), but it sounds like they don’t always work

Take good care Bri, and stay strong,
the Support Team