Forums Suicide and Self-Injury self injury but saved by a text

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      Losing hope but saved by a text
      I’m losing hope
      It’s all just going dark
      I’m fading more and more
      Days go by one by one
      Ever so slowly
      Slipping into a dark hole
      I *SI’d for the first time
      That’s all I thought about
      No more mind pain
      Just physical pain
      Starting to cry
      It’s all coming back
      The agonizing pain
      The bullying, the taunting
      The memories of your past
      All coming back to you
      So depressed you don’t know what to do
      You think of ways to get out
      Nothing comes to mind
      Except the self-harm
      You *SI again and again
      Until there’s nothing left
      You don’t know how to stop
      Don’t know how to love yourself
      To believe in yourself
      Like you once did before
      *SI is not enough
      You start to throw up
      Forcing yourself everyday
      Nobody notices
      You hide it
      Long sleeves and breath mints
      You act happy, deep inside you’re not
      No friends, nobody that cares
      Thoughts of suicide come to mind
      You want out now
      You’re alone nobody home
      You grab the first thing
      That you see a bottle of pills
      You write a letter telling everybody
      I couldn’t handle the pain inside anymore
      I grab the bottle, and that’s when it happened
      A text message saying you are more
      People do care people love you
      You are beautiful, don’t do this
      It made me take a second look on life
      And that’s when I made the choice to get help
      That day I told somebody I trusted
      I turned my life around
      Now I am helping others

      *Edited by the Support Team for explicit content

    • #18590

      you are more than the choices you make
      you are more than the sum of your past mistakes
      you are more

      remember that, and i’m proud of you. you’ve been through a lot, we all have, and i’m impressed and happy to see you turning around and being positive.
      and don’t worry if things don’t always go well, don’t worry if you have a bad day, or are tempted to hurt yourself again in anyway. it’s all a process, and it’s about taking it one step at a time, putting one foot in front of the other.

      again, good job. remember this feeling, that there’s hope. it’s a good one.

    • #18592

      Hi Butterfly17,
      Thanks for sharing your personal story here on Youthspace.

      Through your words, I’m getting a sense of the depth of darkness that you were in before… it sounds like there was pain closing in from every direction, and for some time, suicide seemed like the only option to escape from it all. I’m so thankful that you received a text of love in that moment, and that you were able to keep fighting and to seek help. The fact that you’re here today, helping others who need to hear that message of love and support shows great courage and compassion.

      I can hear so much strength in your words Butterfly17 — that strength is truly inspiring. I’m wondering how life has been for you lately? What sort of help did you get that supported you thru this battle?

      Thank you for sharing your supportive heart hear. Your words seem full of wisdom and experience, and I can only imagine what you have been thru to come to a place where you want to help others thru challenging moments. Know that your contributions are appreciated, more than I can say <3

      Know too that we’re here to support you, or if you’re worried about someone in your life — both on chat and on the forum. <3

      Take care,
      The Support Team.

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