I can hear you are really struggling to know where to turn, or how to deal with all these depressed, anxious thoughts. You say you don’t know how to handle it all, and I’m inspired to see you here talking about it, looking for ways to cope. Seems like it’s really important to you to stay connected and talking to people in order to remain grounded in life.
It sounds like the voices are encouraging your thoughts of suicide, and I can only imagine the determination it takes to keep walking when life feels like hell. Can you tell me what has worked for you in the past to quiet these thoughts?
On top of it all the realization that you are a lesbian has really rocked your world, causing you even more grief. Are you able to talk about your orientation with anyone around you? I hope that you know you deserve to be loved and accepted for who you are.
Thank you for sharing your story with us. Your words convey just how deep you have sunk into this mess of overwhelming thoughts and frustrations that sometimes feel hopeless. I’m glad to hear that you have supportive friends, and I hope you will find strength and encouragement here at Youthspace.ca also.
Here for you,
The Support Team