Thank you for having the courage and strength to give humans one more chance at supporting you. I hope you will find the Youthspace Forum a warm and supportive place.
I can hear the weight of the grief you carry, and I am truly sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how profoundly your brother’s death has impacted you. I want you to know that although you may feel partly responsible his death was not your fault. Please be gentle on yourself in your grief
You’re uncertain how to find ways to control your anxiety, and I’m wondering what you have tried in the past. Has anything helped you avoid those panic attacks?
I have to tell you I’m worried for you! When you say that you’re scared, you feel stuck in a deep depression, and that the emotional pain you carry is getting worse…I’m wondering if suicide has become an option for you? This is a safe place to talk about what is scaring you.
I hope that if you do self-injure you stay safe and care for your injuries. Our Chat Volunteers are online every evening 6-11pm PST if you are in Canada and want to connect that way.
Take care of yourself kittykat101. Hope to hear from you soon.